Have you ever met someone who seems perpetually lost? I spend Thursday nights alone in a coffee shop and I always seem lost when it comes to ordering. I inevitably order tea, Earl Gray if they have it, and then that lost feeling comes over me. Do I order something to eat? They have delicious flat bread pizzas and a lovely artichoke spinach dip, do I or don’t I? It’s one thing to be lost and then found. But let’s flip that around. Let’s talk about seeking and finding. Let’s revisit the sick woman and the synagogue ruler.
Not only did they share a similar emotion: desperation, but they also shared a common act: seeking. We know their desperation prompted them to seek out Jesus. They each faced a circumstance that was beyond their ability to affect the outcome. In fact, the woman spent all that she had trying to find a cure; and the leader probably consulted the best of the best in the medical field on behalf of his precious daughter.
Imagine these two characters from two very different walks of life. Jairus, the synagogue leader kneeling before Jesus and the rejected woman weaving in and out of the crowd, both desperate to touch Jesus’ hem. One approached him boldly. One came to him furtively. Yet, both saw the power of Jesus demonstrated in their lives.
One had to fight through his pride to kneel at a ‘mere’ rabbi’s feet.
The other had to fight the risk of scorn of the crowd.
How does this apply to me? How does this apply to you? We’ve already established the importance of desperation in our relationship with Christ.
Sometimes I have to overcome pride and in my act of kneeling before him I slay that pride. But getting there can be such a battle. Pride. It’s a preventer of receiving Jesus.
There are times when I have to overcome shame and when I lay it aside, I tell shame it has no hold on me. Shame. It prevents us from receiving the miracle Jesus wants to do in our life.
We’ve all felt the lure of pride. The pride that says, ‘I’ve got this,’ or ‘I really should be able to handle this on my own,’. Shame says, ‘who do we think we are approaching the King of Kings,’ or ‘he can never receive me,’.
Shame and pride. Two different emotions with exactly the same outcome: We will not find Jesus. We will find ourselves and we are woefully inadequate.
Those things that prevent me from seeking Jesus? Those things that prevent me from fighting through the crowd of my own shame to touch his hem? They can strangle. They become a place of isolation. They become death.
The slaying of pride and shame is the first step in finding Jesus.
Jesus doesn’t just come to us, but we must also come to him:
Kicking shame to the curb.
And when he is sought, he is found.